I have a padrino, a godfather, not one of those gangster
clichés—aint gonna break no legs, he’s a professor,
studies psocids—book lice, an expert in the field, many
species under his belt including world’s smallest insect—a
wasp that lays eggs on the eggs of psocids and mi padrino
Mockford has spent his life studying these creatures
it all began for him on an Indiana summer night
cicadas singing infinite like and on the day when the
colors on the wings of butterflies captivated him--
somehow he ended up my Godfather maybe due to
the fates being psocids and he got me into
collecting when I was like 7
—that ended when I was like 8—saw this black-
purple-bruise-like-beetle thought
it would be perfect for my collection,
majority of which was eaten by other bugs
who eat crunchy dried bug corpses so eventually
the cork lined box became storage box for my
father’s fighting rooster knives—he had some
from the Philippines called razors and
little boxing gloves and gaffs which are like sharp needles
--my father is actually one of the most compassionate
towards living creatures people I know and this beetle was
crawling along—I couldn’t kill it—I knew
I could snag it easily, freeze it and pin it in the box
with the other husks, just couldn’t though
—felt bad to even want to kill it— I still have my
copy of Borror’s and White’s Field Guide to the Insects
which my Godfather had given me before the beetle
incident--
I couldn’t do it in—watching it shambling along in the
leaves was enough—glorious colors of oil on water mixing
on its black back as it did it’s beetle life and I mine and my
Godfather his which sometimes involves the death or
stunning (with Alka Seltzer) of a psocid, but my Godfather
is one of the most compassionate people I know regarding
life of any kind—and I may have got that feeling
from either God or Father
more than likely it seems to
me Now, both.
By Juventino Manzano
He has been published in various magazines including Celebrate the Self, Hustler Fantasies, EIDOS, Proper Gander, Bourgeoizine, Last Stop at Union Station, and the Post Amerikan.
Copyright ©2008 Juventino Manzano
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